I am tired like I’ve nver been tired before – since my student days anyways. Pregnancy will do that to you as will looking after a rather demanding toddler. We’re finding out who’s the boss at the moment. I am, obviously, but Raven is challenging this by, amongst other things, throwing herself on the floor, crying uncontrollably and other such manoeuvres. But we get through it – by saying NO quite frequently and sternly.

All I was going to talk to you about, Mette, was the fact that quite a few ppl I have regular contact with (from England) have expressed that the parents of the little girl Madelaine abducted from her bed at a holiday resort in the Algarve were at fault for leaving the child unattended whilst they were out dining. I can’t really be bothered to go into detail about the rather heated discussions that I have become engaged in with people, but the thing is, I leave Raven for up to 4 hours outside in her pram – no baby monitor, no visual contact, nothing. If someone wanted to come and take her, they could very easily do so. But you don’t expect anyone to steal your child. And I would be so upset if someone did and people blamed me. But the story was longer than that. I just don’t have the energy. Instead, I pray that Madeleine will be found and returned to her parents. Poor, poor parents and poor, poor Madeleine. She must be so scared and feel so abandoned and alone.

I’m freezing cold all the time. I think it’s cos I’m so damned tired.

I have my first scan on May 22nd at 12:40 – just after my booking in appointment with the doctor. My First midwife appointment is on June 5th. There’ll probably be another scan a week or so after this one, as they are doing a dating scan and a nuchal fold, if I’m at least 11 +3 weeks gone, which I don’t think I will be, so it’ll only be the dating scan and then they’ll have to give me another appointment for the nuchal fold scan. We shall see.

I have to go now. I’m really, really cold. Gotta light the stove downstairs and cuddle up with a hot drink.